Today is one of those days where I found myself doubting, well, myself. All of those things I've learned, the things that I have become, the hopes that I allow myself to still cling to, in the aftermath of the last few years, they are swirling in my head today with the wonderings of which of those things are worth keeping.
It began with a dream as I woke up. It was a bizarre dream, even to my standards, but it held a lot of different messages. It held some people who are quite precious to me. It got me thinking about some of the memories of the past few years, and about how the things I've wanted in life have changed as I've changed.
It got me thinking about wanting more and wanting less, about staying or walking away, about some very deep and life changing conversations I've had with a friend about such things. It got me thinking about decisions, which ones need to be made, which ones I avoid.
And it leaves my mind still swirling with thoughts. And a little bit of doubt. And a bit of joy. And a lot of uncertainty. This leaves the pictures for today...little pieces, up close, from when I went for a quick drive. It's kind of like the inside of my head today, little bits of different things, up close, trying to put them together.
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